The day you remember that child of yours that you sidelined for so long…
that one that you can sleep without thinking about or squander away your money without the guilt of not having made sure she has enough…
That one that is hardly talked about when your life blossoms
That child you left in the shadows for that woman to take of ….
Please do apologize.
Apologize for your absence, swallow your pride and admit to your faults
Apologize and find no excuse valid to explain your absence unless you had died and risen from the dead.
That day when you feel the strongest edge to show up, do thank that lady who shouldered your responsibilities, That woman who got exhausted reminding you that the child needs this and that, that woman you gave a cold shoulder when she asked you for help. That woman who didn’t only bear the pain of birthing him but the pain of raising him alone too whilst you forgot about the seed you planted. Be grateful and find no reason to disregard her efforts.
And please be humble enough to thank the man who stepped in your shoes and provided a father figure for your child, don’t fight for the light to shine on you, let the darkness you created fade away as you peacefully blend into their lives.
That day when you unravel from your own self woven web and decide to shake the comfort zone of that child, do consider building beyond her level of comfort rather than dismantling her foundation, add to her life don’t take away. Work around the resentment you find in her because it was a defense against your abrasive absence, don’t fight for recognition- build towards being recognized.
The day you admit and announce to the world he is yours,Let it not be because you foresee gain, let it be because redemption has gotten you to understand everyone needs to belong. He deserved to experience your existence and know his roots, she deserves to have identification.
Dear absent father, wherever you are, May your smiles be not yours alone but pave your way to your child, May your tears nag you to want to shield him too, May your pain make you wish healing for her as well and May life reunite you with your fruit so that you experience completeness and the bliss of parenthood despite your mistakes
But if you have no intention to maintain her peace, please hold on to your silence until the day the ground opens up to welcome you. Maybe you will answer better to God.
What will never change is that wherever you are or have been you remained the one that claimed the fatherhood title as nature dictated.
Dear absent father,Please Do better. Your absence is a nagging prick. All the best to you.
Much love ❤️
Kelly
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