May what you saw attractive in me remain vivid even when your rage against me grows within you, May it surpass your blurry view of me when you are angry
May the love you felt without me saying anything be strong enough to restrain you from destroying me when I say something you find offensive.
May the smiles and laughs we shared be a reminder that frowns and cries are not what i chose when i said ‘yes’ to you, it was the beauty of sharing and growing in love, it was how free and safe I felt with you.
May the memories of the passion between us calm you down when anger burns within you, remember that I once shared my vulnerability with you, you don’t need to harm me to feel powerful, your love for me makes you the Superman.
May the dreams we shared and goals we planned together in those good times serve to remind you I need to live on even in your absence , you walking away is giving me a chance to realize those dreams. Exclude yourself from journeying with me, you have a right to leave and I too have mine to live.
May you have pity on my lack of physical strength the days you feel like fighting the life out of me, remember that with your strength you once chose to protect me.
May you have empathy at the sound of my desperate helpless cries when you think of shredding me into pieces, remember when my tears made you sad.
May you take heed of my pleads those moments you want to finish me off.
Please spare me,
In my unlovable state spare me. Spare my kids from a heartache, spare my parents from a heartbreak, spare my siblings the grief. Spare yourself the wrath of the world, lets part in peace.
Let my “No!” be heard in the loudest form and evoke pity in your heart. Let my scream for you to “stop!” tug at your heart strings and have you abandon the thoughts of taking my life.
Please know that my rejection of you is not a measure of your worth, understand that as deliberate as it sounds those moments it is also instinctual, survival instinct. Let me go so that I can survive in best way I see fit.
Have mercy, I am no angel, I am an imperfect being but extinction of my existence is no solution,It is cruelty in its worst form. Allow me to face my faults and crimes alive. There is more to my existence than meets the eye, give me a chance to live.
Let’s learn harmony together or if you know better teach me Harmony without harming me. Please, Let me not die by your hands, the hands I once felt safe in.
My fellow ladies, sisters and friends have died in the hands of your fellow men, please be the difference. You can be the difference.
Love always ❤️
Kelly
Life Ls 